No more tomorrows

You go along with your everyday life, never wondering if tomorrow is coming. Of course it's coming. Why wouldn't it? 

It was any other Saturday. I was at the gym with a good friend, just working out and laughing away like we do. I got a text that said "I need you" from one of my best humans. This girl asks for nothing, so I knew it was serious. I couldn't have possibly imagined though just how serious.

I arrived at her house...she made me sit on the couch. She started talking...I couldn't follow what she was saying. Something about our friends brother and her best friend... Wait...Did you just tell me Kaylea died?? I was so confused. 

Our good friend died, in a house fire, alongside her hilarious and loving little boys and her stepdaughter. She was younger than me...the kids were in elementary school....why?! 

Why did this happen?? What is the value in tradegy?! Absolutely not a fucking thing! I want to undo this. How can we go back in time and save these beautiful lives?! I don't understand. This can't be real.

This woman...she had risen out of hell and had everything she had ever wanted. She had gone back to school, started working as a T.A., was engaged, was a loving Mom to her boys, had a new home and sweet dog...She literally had it all. Why?!

The next 5 minutes of your life are not promised. Nothing is promised. Not one single day of this life should be wasted. Tell the people you care, do the things, take the trips, have the experiences...put nothing on hold because nothing is promised. 

I miss your face, your squeezy hugs, your laugh, your humor, your acceptance. You beautiful freaking human!!! 

I will love you for always, Kaylea. I wish I had been a better friend. I should have told you I loved you everyday. I should have been better, but I always thought we had tomorrow. XOXO

Kaylea and me-September 8, 2021